thought ! new years

30 *cough*.. came and went. and with it, a slice off the old me persay. im not predicting instant change, but perhaps a select few applications of a new mantra, motto and some meditation. i could practice and set a habit in motion if im lucky. More zen focus!! this being one of them:

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

~author unknown (as always if anyone knows.. inform me please)

channeling zen, observing life around me. listen to the signs. be patient and mutable in my quest to be v2.0 :).. if the web is evolving, why shouldnt i along with it? huh? appreciate life in its raw splendor and improve my abilities that allow me to translate this splendor. its important i leave my erratic 20's wearing my scars proudly and with purpose. and with my directed energies i can show those around me the wisdom ive so graciously aquired from graduating to adulthood. ha
~denn

thought * transition 30

my absence from the blog speaks volumes of my current focus. the big 3-0 is approaching. and while it might not seem much of a milestone or turning point in my life. i still have set out some personal goals. one being getting in basketball shape. i have an old standing bet with my eldest brother robert that when thirty rolled around i would be as good as shape as i was being 18.. its a far stretch i know. but coupled with the wisdom ive gained and man strength i think the odds are in my favor. so ive somehow found the energy to ball three to four times weekly. anymore would be overkill and besides im still going to be thirty.ha!. and one strong component thats missing from my arsenal. is youth duh.. the resiliency of joints that shrug off hard exertion and without stretching just so your body can do it again the very next day. that and im not as fearless as i once was. my job requires me to be on my feet and if i injure myself well.. shit.. im not about to think about it. so fear, or knowing my mortality is a plus and minus of getting older.. hopefully with continuing this daily expressing of my thoughts and being creative will make this 30th life marker more like a quarter of my life.. than a third.. ..