thought * transition 30

my absence from the blog speaks volumes of my current focus. the big 3-0 is approaching. and while it might not seem much of a milestone or turning point in my life. i still have set out some personal goals. one being getting in basketball shape. i have an old standing bet with my eldest brother robert that when thirty rolled around i would be as good as shape as i was being 18.. its a far stretch i know. but coupled with the wisdom ive gained and man strength i think the odds are in my favor. so ive somehow found the energy to ball three to four times weekly. anymore would be overkill and besides im still going to be thirty.ha!. and one strong component thats missing from my arsenal. is youth duh.. the resiliency of joints that shrug off hard exertion and without stretching just so your body can do it again the very next day. that and im not as fearless as i once was. my job requires me to be on my feet and if i injure myself well.. shit.. im not about to think about it. so fear, or knowing my mortality is a plus and minus of getting older.. hopefully with continuing this daily expressing of my thoughts and being creative will make this 30th life marker more like a quarter of my life.. than a third.. ..